gosh her little oxygen tubes kill me. i can't wait till we can take those off for good.
i can't tell you how much i'm obsessed with this child. i could (and do) stare at her for hours. nothing else matters in my world. her milk breath, her stretches, her sad faces she makes while she's sleeping, her accidental smiles, her girly sighs, her staring back at me and brad...i could go on forever. this week has been the best with her in our lives.
i was texting pictures to brad while he was at work of Ivy, and he texted back, "gosh i love being a father". and he's a damn good one too. i've never been more turned on and in love with brad than when he's holding her, feeding her in the night, (for something that is supposed to be so natural, breastfeeding for me, is not.), burping her so gently, and going down to give her a kiss and ending up just laying his head next to hers because he can't stop kissing her.
the peace that comes with a sleeping child is heavenly. not because she's asleep, but because the house all of a sudden fills with an angelic feel. you can actually feel a little slice of heaven that's still so attached to her.
it's funny because before she was born, my main goal was to NOT get stretch marks. now i look at my chubby, morphed body that's drenched in stretch marks, and none of that matters anymore. it's funny how all of that goes out the door. all that matters now is keeping this little angel close and loving her. i'm sure one day i'll wake up and hate my body and do everything i can to get it back to normal, but for now, i'm just so grateful my body was capable of getting pregnant and was able to carry her for 9 months.
welp, she just woke up....gotta jet :).
p.s. a fantastic song we've been loving lately-Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros-Child. give her a listen, you'll love it.
2 comments:
These pictures are to die for. You are already such great parents. The NICU stint made breastfeeding incredibly difficult for me and the gal, so I totally feel your frustration. Let me know if you need the name of a great lactation specialist.
Gosh you make me baby hungry and I already have 2 kids and a baby on the way.
There really is something amazing that happens once they are born, changes your whole perspective of life and the way you thought before.
And there is seriously something so special when a baby sleeps, just watching them, it's like when they fall asleep they can still go to Heaven and bring pieces of Heaven back with them.
Keep the posts coming, because I am loving every word and picture.
Congrats mama!
I will come by for a visit in 4 weeks, 3 days, 2 hours and 1 second. See ya then!
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