Wednesday, February 22, 2012

i'm pregnant. for realsies this time.

ha, well...it truly has been months since i've posted.  months of hell to be quite honest.  nobody quite gives you the real scoop of pregnancy.  i'll give it to you right now.....vomit breath, vomit car smell, severe constipation, hideousness, lack of personality/soul, and migraines. not to mention feeling fat and ugly times a million. and the diabetes is a cherry on top that weighs about as much as a mountain. that being said, this is just my experience. i pray there are others out there that have had wonderful pregnancies and can make it sound blissful.

now, on to the good stuff!! i'm having a girl!! i'm 16 weeks along and my due date is august 10th. words can't quite describe the feeling you get looking at your baby girl on the monitor while she's curled up in a ball hangin out in your hairy, chubby belly. it's a miracle the love i all of a sudden have.  i'm seriously obsessed with her. even if she does come out with a mustache.

i'm sorry for the absence, the computer for some reason makes me sicker than a dog.  nothing is more pleasant than cleaning vomit from the keyboard.

that's the scoop as of yet.  boring i know, but to be honest, my life has consisted of sickness and rotting on the couch.  which i pray is coming to an end. and brad....well don't even get me started on how grateful i am for him.  patience and love are words that don't do justice. he's taken such good care of me, despite our sexless life. the diabetes has made pregnancy tricky, and lucky for me, brad has been my constant companion to help with it all.

15 comments:

Lindsay said...

YAY!!! You are ALIVE! I was getting so worried about you, sorry about the sucky intro to pregnancy, that's AWFUL! But holy cow - A GIRL??!!!! Yay! I am SO dang excited for you guys. I am so madly in love with my baby girl that I can't even explain it to you, and I know that you'll feel the exact same way. It's just amazing. Seriously, the type of love that a mother has for her daughter is just inexplicable. I am SO happy for you. Congratulations! And HANG IN THERE!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!! I KNOW YOU CAN!!! It will all get better. And diabetes can suck it because you will do FABULOUSLY! I am so excited for you both! CONGRATS!!!

Maren said...

I love how you added, "sexless life." Haha! I laugh only because of how accurate that statement is. "Don't even think about touching me Joe." Our poor husbands. I can't believe you can find out so quickly what gender you are having! I have to wait until my 20 week appt to have an ultrasound (march 16th!), ...but Joe convinced me to not find out so it's a surprise. I am still figuring out how I feel about that. I am so sorry with how sick you have been. I get sick, but you sound worse. I'm glad you took a chance on your computer and blogged to keep us all up to date (hopefully it didn't end up with barfing). I haven't barfed for a few days in a row (minus dry heaving, ...I do that all the time), so I am allowing myself to hope that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there! It sure helps things when you can actually start to feel the baby moving or see it on a screen. I bet you will feel her within a couple weeks if you haven't already. If you feel like you have gas bubbles, it's probably the baby! Haha. I laugh, but it's true. However, if you fart after, then it was probably just gas pains. Sorry to disappoint. ;) Hope you are getting better! Take care of yourself, and thank goodness for amazing husbands!

Rachel said...

Melissa, I am so excited for you! I have been so worried about you sudden disappearance from the online world and am so excited to see that you're having a baby. Wahoo! My gosh - can I bring you a present?

Kris and Corissa said...

Congratulations!! I have missed reading your blog. I hope the pregnancy gets better and the sickness starts to go away. Congratulations again!

Megan Miley and Chris said...

Oh yuck, I am so sorry that you feel like crap. But yay for a baby! Congrats! Wishing you get out of the barfyness stage soon!

Kay said...

Congrats Melissa you will make one amazing mother, and sorry to hear you are feeling like the pits. I about pooped when I read your "sexless life," that's hilare. I can't wait to see more baby bump pictures and pictures of a beautiful baby girl in August!

sarjuh said...

SO excited for you guys! Congrats! Being pregs IS the worst and that is why I am popping these girls out one after the other so I can be done being pregnant and have fun being mom. You look great though and it gets better...sickness and feeling like a human again! Girls are so so fun! We are all pink here and I wouldn't change a thing! Can't wait to see how pretty she is going to be!!! I have no doubts!

Nicole S. said...

Oh, I'm just so happy and excited for you!!! Please, please can I see you again?!

Allie said...

Aaaaaaaaand, you're back! I am thrilled beyond words about you being pregnant! Seriously, the best new. You are not alone in your pregnancy experience. I recall a drive home from park city that included me ralphing graham crackers all over Matt's car. When we got home, he threw me in the shower and proceeded outside with a bucket of soapy water for his car. I'm not sure what is worse--- barfing or cleaning up someone else's barf.

The Forbes said...

I seriously can't explain how excited I am for you.

Chelsea Leis said...

There are many pregnant women who are frustrated with how they look, feel or sense. Some can't adapt to their lifestyle changes. I guess yours is quite different because you're diabetic. You need to watch and control your sugar intake… Just continue staying healthy for both of you and your baby. Have fun on your pregnancy!

Emily Smith said...

So so happy for you guys. Aug is going to be a great month!! We are due Aug 27th!! So glad your posting again, I missed reading your blog! Hope things get better soon!

Amanda said...

HOLY AWESOME!! Yes I still totally stalk your blog- Congratulations!! You will make a wonderful mother- you are like no one else I've known- so full of life. I had three horrible pregnancies- *shudder*- so I feel for you- It's all worth it in the end! Good luck in these next few months!!

Jonathan and Kiri said...

Haha isn't it so funny (is funny the right word?) how all the sudden you're like "THIS is morning sickness?! THIS can't be what every pregnant woman in the world has experienced? How the heck did they do it??!!!" We literally have certain foods in our house that we can't mention because even the thought of them...well, you know all too well! I'm so happy you found out she's a girl. Watching your baby on that ultrasound is the sweetest experience in the world and feeling them for the first time is a thrill!!! As crummy as it can all be it is still the most amazing miracle in the world to carry a child! I honestly hope you feel better. It just gets frustrating to feel so terrible day after day and I don't even know what it's be like to have diabetes on top of that. So take all the rest you need, try not to stress about your changing body, it's all part of the process! It's truly a blessing to have such supportive husbands to get through it all. I know you feel the same when I say I couldn't do it without my one and only!

Keep us updated when you can :)

Rachell said...

ah, the greatest adventure of all. nothing is more terrifying, exhausting, satisfying and happier then having a baby (literally). the kids themselves are pretty great, too, but actually HAVING a baby...not much compares. you'll be fantastic. at all of it.